Have you ever been caught in a cycle where time feels simultaneously never ending and like you blinked and it was gone? Welcome August. That's what this month has been for me. I didn't really notice the month had started, and now it's almost gone, taking with it the final days of summer.
I set a pretty ambitious list of goals for the summer this year. I really wanted to mark the time in a special way, with lots of activities that felt unique to the summer months. I made my own summer in a way I haven't before, and although at times I regretted not building in more introvert down time, I'm glad I packed these last few months with novelty.
Much like Robertson Davies, I had times where the days felt overcast with my own heaviness of spirit. And the heaviness was real. Work was intense not only for me, but also for my husband. Working opposite shifts was (and still is) hard. Balancing family obligations, time with friends, time with one another, work events, and a little bit of solitude felt impossible at times. Not a day has gone by this summer where I haven't felt like I'm letting somebody down.
However, adventures are what make a summer, and I planned several of them. I kept a detailed list of things that make summer feel like summer, and I stuck to them. We biked around the lake, we visited the north shore, we went hiking and I spent many nights reading outside. We ate on patios and tried new recipes with lots of fresh seasonal produce. We explored new places and tried new things to force us out of our comfort zones. I said yes a lot more than I usually would.
It might surprise those closest to me that keeping very busy is what made my summer great. I like a slower pace, and prefer to keep a wide margin to my days. But momentum kept me going when through the more challenging weeks of summer. And knowing all the activity and movement and socializing had a solid end date helped. Fall is absolutely my favorite season, and I plan to celebrate in slow, small, quiet ways that will nourish me in a way I can't quite put into words.
I can't believe this is the last Monday before Labor Day. There are so many great things about summer. I hope you had time to enjoy them. I'll share more about what we did and how I designed my summer later. Right now, I'm going to get outside while the sun is still full in the sky. I'm going to push away any heaviness, and make room for a few last adventures.